I’ve been there as a wife, for the first year-and-a-half or so of my marriage, pursuing my own endeavors, my God-given dreams. Now, certainly, God had called me to be a writer, but I took that calling and exalted it above my marriage.
Sometimes, we wives do that: God has a calling on our lives, has gifted us, but in our zeal and lack of wisdom, we dash to make that calling a reality, rather than patiently wait for Him to make it a reality.
Those early endeavors of mine were hardly fruitful. I look at women who are twice my age or so, usually with kids out of the house already, and God is using their gifts in mighty ways. They typically have their own ministry and its bearing wonderful fruit for God’s kingdom, but again, they’re twice my age without little kids to care for. These women were likely faithful in what God gave them; their duties as a wife and mother, and put their ministry dreams on hold. I bet most, if not all of them didn’t even realize God was using their family to train and prepare them for their future ministries.
I came to a place where I said yes, I have these cool dreams I’d like to someday walk in for the Lord, like have my own Christian acting school, but I sure ain’t pursuing that now! I’m a wife and mommy first, and I know God wants me to be faithful in these ministries first and devote myself to them because these ministries are far more important than I can probably even fathom. As the bible says:
“The wise woman builds her house, But the foolish pulls it down with her hands.”-Proverbs 14:1 NKJV
Supporting my husband and working alongside him has borne delightful fruit and I actually enjoy it more than pursuing or doing my own thing, and I pray for as long as we both are alive, we are one team for Jesus, co-laboring for the gospel.
Lord, please help me to remember and grow in my understanding of how crucial my current roles are. Guard me from trying to speed up Your calling on my life, and help me to be faithful with what You’ve given me. Give me patience, and let me not forsake abiding in Your presence, for ultimately, with You there is fullness of joy. In Jesus’ name, amen.