“For your Maker is your husband, the Lord of Hosts is His name; And your Redeemer is the Holy One of Israel; He is called the God of the whole earth. For the Lord has called you like a woman forsaken and grieved in spirit, like a youthful wife when you were refused,” says your God. “For a mere moment I have forsaken you, but with great mercies I will gather you. With a little wrath I hid My face from you for a moment; but with everlasting kindness I will have mercy on you,” says the Lord, your Redeemer. “For this is like the waters of Noah to Me; for as I have sworn that the waters of Noah would no longer cover the earth, so have I sworn that I would not be angry with you, nor rebuke you. For the mountains shall depart and the hills be removed, but My kindness shall not depart from you. Nor shall My covenant of peace be removed,” says the Lord, who has mercy on you.”-Isaiah 54:5-10
God is the Author of romance. He is the embodiment of love; He is love personified. When He speaks, it is from a source of pure, unadulterated, all-powerful, all-consuming love. There is nothing more intoxicating than God’s love.
Before midnight, February 22nd, 2009, I was intoxicated by what I thought was love. The affection and attention I received from guys controlled basically everything I did in life. My desire for love was so great, it influenced all of my decisions from the moment my eyes opened each morning. I would spend at least forty-five minutes on my hair and makeup before leaving for school, and my outfits had to be sexy.
Every weekend I went places with a motive: to find a hot guy and reel him in. I was always seeking attention, affirmation, and adoration from guys I liked. If I didn’t get what I wanted, and when things fell apart, it always made me sorrowful. My relational status dictated my demeanor and my outlook on life.
I was so consumed with finding “the one,” I was so lost in the feelings, the emotional high, the pleasure of being desired, that I had no idea it was an idol; guys were my god.
I worshipped being wanted.
I told people I was a Christian; I thought since I believed in Jesus and prayed that I was good. I was totally oblivious to the fact that I was breaking the very first of the Ten Commandments: “You shall have no other gods before me.” A “god” or an “idol” is anything you love more than god, anything that controls you, anything you can’t let go of. I allowed romantic relationships with guys to grab a hold of my deepest desire and greatest need and try to fulfill it. Obviously, they never did.
Whoever coined the phrase, “You’re looking for love in all the wrong places,” was quite wise. I was looking for love in the wrong places: broken, fallen, sinful guys. They didn’t know the Author of Love, they didn’t have him in their heart. They could never love me the way I so desperately wanted them to. There was only one Man who could love me the way I needed to be loved: Jesus.
On February 22nd, 2009 I finally awoke to that amazing truth. My last heartbreak jarred me. I had been inching closer to God, but that day I collapsed into His arms, and this time, I didn’t want to let go. I was done. I knew what I hoped in—the relationships I had dreamed of—were just that: dreams distracting me from the truth; the truth that my real dream Prince was there all along, waiting to sweep me into His adventure, into His great romance, and fulfill all of my desires.
I stopped searching for love in guys and began finding it in Christ.
His love was so sweet, so tender, so healthy, it healed me in literally six days. I no longer needed attention from a guy, or a boyfriend. I was single and happier than I’d ever been. Almost seven years later, and I am still more joyful than ever, in love with my Redeemer, my first Husband, my King, Jesus Christ. I was carried into a divine romance, and by God’s breathtaking grace, I will enjoy it for all eternity.
Have you been captivated by God’s love? Do share in a comment when your divine romance began and where it has brought you. If you have yet to experience God’s intoxicating love, I pray you consider what the idol is in your life, lay it down, and seek Christ. You will certainly discover all that you’ve ever needed is in Him. If you need prayer or encouragement, feel free to email me: BetterThanPrinceCharming(at)gmail.com